There is nothing more accomplished than the love of Jesus. And it is becoming more and more apparent in my life every day. Jesus is not conditional. He is unconditional. He has a strong love for my every heartbeat. I know it.
The Lord goes before me in my life. He sits right beside me when the sun is shining and even when it’s not. He is with me when I have no one, when my mom leaves my family, when everything hurts. He is there in the trenches alongside me. And He pulls on my heart strings. He helps me make better choices. He loves me through my mess.
In the Bible, it says that, “(4) Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. (5) It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. (6) Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (7) It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.” -1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NIV)
When I was reading my Bible this morning, my heart really started to palpitate when it said, “…it keeps no record of wrongs.” It is scary to think that I have kept a list of grievances. I have held a record of wrongs against some people. I have done this many times. Just in the last week, I had a fallout with one of my best friends. I took what she “did” to me last year, and I made it a problem this year. I brought it out of the dark just to hurt her. I’ve noticed that I do that as a way to make myself feel liked I have “won” the dispute. But that does not come from a loving place. It does not come from a place of kindness or protection. It derives from a place of anger and evil.
I have lived my life the wrong way. I have held grudges and I have said mean things. I have not loved others like I am suppose to. And I almost feel sick to my stomach thinking about it. 18 years of my life, I have been the mean girl. I have hurt people. I have put myself before others. I have done things intentionally lacking the consideration of someone else’s feelings.
There is nothing I can do to make up for it, but to live my life in such a way that people forgive me for the person I once was.
I am working on loving people with all I am, keeping no record of wrongdoings because Jesus loves me this way. It is never based on the nature or quality of present conditions. He sees the sinner in me and loves me ANYWAY. Through the help of God, I choose to love AND forgive other people without limitations and without motive. I choose to love people unconditionally even when it gets hard because Jesus does that for me every day. He has shown me what love is.